Late last year, I happened to catch part of Elder Holland's CES fireside on lessons learned from the Liberty Jail. I was profoundly moved, as the passages of scripture we have from this difficult time have been consistently important to me, and I have turned to them time after time when I've needed more understanding about what I've experienced.
When I saw the talk reprinted in the BYU alumni magazine that came today, I was struck again. It's just so beautiful, and so true. The idea of our most horrific times as temple-prisons...I can't do it justice. Read the talk. Here it is.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Book of Mormon Study: 2 Nephi 2-4, continued
OK, nothing much to say, other than I love Nephi's psalm. I love Nephi's humanity shining through the mantel of prophet, that he recognizes his flaws and beats himself up for them. How real is that?
As I've started Rough Stone Rolling and learned even more about Joseph Smith, I see his humanity shining through the mantel of prophet, too. It's made me appreciate that God can use each of us, despite our imperfections, for His work. Heavenly Father wants me to touch the lives of others. He wants me to overcome my weaknesses, but even if that takes a lifetime and beyond, he can use me for good in the world. Prophets are not perfect men, and when we expect them to be, it puts them on a pedestal away from the rest of us, which is a dangerous place for them to be, not for them, but for us. If we accept their humanity with their power, it ennobles us with them.
As I've started Rough Stone Rolling and learned even more about Joseph Smith, I see his humanity shining through the mantel of prophet, too. It's made me appreciate that God can use each of us, despite our imperfections, for His work. Heavenly Father wants me to touch the lives of others. He wants me to overcome my weaknesses, but even if that takes a lifetime and beyond, he can use me for good in the world. Prophets are not perfect men, and when we expect them to be, it puts them on a pedestal away from the rest of us, which is a dangerous place for them to be, not for them, but for us. If we accept their humanity with their power, it ennobles us with them.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Book of Mormon Study: 2 Nephi 1-4, especially Nephi's Psalm
2 Nephi 1: Lehi teaches his sons, and once again, begs his rebellious sons to reconsider their position on spiritual things. In v. 13-14, he says, "O that ye would awake; awake from a deep sleep, yea, even from the sleep of hell, and shake off the awful chains by which ye are bound, which are the chains which bind the children of men, that they are carried away captive down to teh eternal gulf of misery and woe. Awake! and arise from the dust, and hear the words of a trembling parent, whose limbs ye must soon lay down in the cold and silent grave, from whence no traveler can return; a few more days and I go the way of all the earth."
Lehi is a king of the guilt trip. Man. I know how I would have responded in my more rebellious years. But Lehi just is BEGGING his family to turn to righteousness, to find joy. He is doing all that he can to teach them the things he has spent his whole life learning. A sad chapter. But I do like v. 30-32 where Zoram is called a true friend to Nephi. I'm glad Nephi had true friends.
Chapter 2 is one of my favorites in the Book of Mormon (as is chapter 4). I come back to this chapter again and again, to v. 11-16. The discussion of opposition in all things touches on deep eternal laws.
And I also love v. 23: "And they would have had no children; wherefore they would have remained in a state of innocence, having no joy, for they knew no misery; doing no good, for they knew no sin." Having children equals joy AND misery. True, yes?
Of course, one of the cornerstone scriptures for me is v. 25: "Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy."
It's getting late. I'll come back to Nephi's Psalm tomorrow.
Lehi is a king of the guilt trip. Man. I know how I would have responded in my more rebellious years. But Lehi just is BEGGING his family to turn to righteousness, to find joy. He is doing all that he can to teach them the things he has spent his whole life learning. A sad chapter. But I do like v. 30-32 where Zoram is called a true friend to Nephi. I'm glad Nephi had true friends.
Chapter 2 is one of my favorites in the Book of Mormon (as is chapter 4). I come back to this chapter again and again, to v. 11-16. The discussion of opposition in all things touches on deep eternal laws.
And I also love v. 23: "And they would have had no children; wherefore they would have remained in a state of innocence, having no joy, for they knew no misery; doing no good, for they knew no sin." Having children equals joy AND misery. True, yes?
Of course, one of the cornerstone scriptures for me is v. 25: "Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy."
It's getting late. I'll come back to Nephi's Psalm tomorrow.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Book of Mormon Study...
To be honest, I'm really stinking at this Book of Mormon study business. I've never had such a hard time getting motivated to study. I've read the Book of Mormon countless times, but certainly at least once a year for the last 18 or so years.
So what's different this time?
Ah, well, there's the rub. I don't know.
That's not entirely true. There are some underlying currents making it difficult for me to be dedicated. And there's the little matter of my crisis of faith that has been tearing me up for the last couple of months.
BUT...
and it's a big but...
I've had some beautiful, sacred, emotional experiences lately, as well as the draining, worrying, exhausting questions. And I think it's safe to say finally that I am at peace with my faith. I am at peace with the gospel. I am at peace with God. The world roils on around me. Questions may become more difficult to answer. But I have been given the gift of grace to deal with what I must, and I must assume that this gift is limitless, that God's grace can allow me to have faith in things hoped for, but not seen. It's called faith, not knowledge, after all.
So, I'll be posting more regularly. And I'll be studying even more than posting. So I'll probably just throw in little ideas or things I love as I go along.
So what's different this time?
Ah, well, there's the rub. I don't know.
That's not entirely true. There are some underlying currents making it difficult for me to be dedicated. And there's the little matter of my crisis of faith that has been tearing me up for the last couple of months.
BUT...
and it's a big but...
I've had some beautiful, sacred, emotional experiences lately, as well as the draining, worrying, exhausting questions. And I think it's safe to say finally that I am at peace with my faith. I am at peace with the gospel. I am at peace with God. The world roils on around me. Questions may become more difficult to answer. But I have been given the gift of grace to deal with what I must, and I must assume that this gift is limitless, that God's grace can allow me to have faith in things hoped for, but not seen. It's called faith, not knowledge, after all.
So, I'll be posting more regularly. And I'll be studying even more than posting. So I'll probably just throw in little ideas or things I love as I go along.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
“There are wide areas of our society from which the spirit of prayer and reverence and worship has vanished. Men and women in many circles are clever, interesting, or brilliant, but they lack one crucial element in a complete life—They do not look up.” ~~~Howard W. Hunter
I loved President Hunter. He was prophet for such a short time, but had a true impact on my life. His gentle advice was so often about loving those around us, being gentle to those we might be harsh with. I came across this quote on Blog Segullah today and it resonated. It's important. In my small crisis of faith, I have noticed that I lack peace when I fail to figuratively look up. It helps me greatly to remember the divine.
I loved President Hunter. He was prophet for such a short time, but had a true impact on my life. His gentle advice was so often about loving those around us, being gentle to those we might be harsh with. I came across this quote on Blog Segullah today and it resonated. It's important. In my small crisis of faith, I have noticed that I lack peace when I fail to figuratively look up. It helps me greatly to remember the divine.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Book of Mormon Study: 1 Nephi 16-17
I've seen myself in Laman and Lemuel much more this time through the Book of Mormon than ever before. I've had empathy for them in the past, I've felt like I understood their frustrations and anger and maybe even their descent into a willingness to commit murder. They were living through extreme times and their emotions, especially their rage, are so close to the surface.
But reading chapters 16 and 17 this time, I feel as though their arguments to Nephi could come from my mouth. This is a mirror I don't want to look into, but it's important to see myself clearly. Trials can push us away from godly things or they can bring us closer. Laman, Lemuel and the sons of Ishmael had the SAME experiences as Nephi, and yet their reactions were so different.
Some of these experiences they all went through:
1. Forced to leave their wealthy lives
2. Wandered in the wilderness for 8 years (EIGHT YEARS! That's a long time.)
3. Saw that the Liahona (a miraculous object) worked according to faith
4. Lost their means of obtaining food
5. Experienced hunger, possibly close to death (Did Ishmael die partially because of a lack of food? His daughters may suggest this in v. 35)
6. Ate raw meat. For eight years.
7. "Suffered much affliction, hunger, thirst, and fatigue" "We did travel and wade through much affliction"
8. Bore (or saw their wives bear) children in the wilderness, in much less than optimal circumstances
Why did Nephi become a prophet and his brothers become attempted murderers?
Is the answer all in chapter 2, v. 16? "I did cry unto the Lord; and behold he did visit me, and did soften my heart that I did believe all the words which had been spoken by my father; wherefore, I did not rebel against him like unto my brothers."
Once we turn our hearts from God, it is easy to be led in so many paths. Truth can feel so subjective. It is hard to move from a heart closed off to the things of God back to having a soft heart, ready and willing to believe. Fasting helps. Prayer helps. Learning to be as a child in our faith helps. Studying the scriptures helps. But so much of it depends on one simple thing: our willingness. We must be willing to listen, to hope, and to believe in the feelings we DO experience, and to accept that there are some hard things we may not understand right at this moment.
I mourn for Laman and Lemuel, for the great battle that would rage in the future, over and over again, between their children and the children of Nephi and Sam and Zoram. If only they could have been willing to turn their hearts to God. They were so close, so many times.
But reading chapters 16 and 17 this time, I feel as though their arguments to Nephi could come from my mouth. This is a mirror I don't want to look into, but it's important to see myself clearly. Trials can push us away from godly things or they can bring us closer. Laman, Lemuel and the sons of Ishmael had the SAME experiences as Nephi, and yet their reactions were so different.
Some of these experiences they all went through:
1. Forced to leave their wealthy lives
2. Wandered in the wilderness for 8 years (EIGHT YEARS! That's a long time.)
3. Saw that the Liahona (a miraculous object) worked according to faith
4. Lost their means of obtaining food
5. Experienced hunger, possibly close to death (Did Ishmael die partially because of a lack of food? His daughters may suggest this in v. 35)
6. Ate raw meat. For eight years.
7. "Suffered much affliction, hunger, thirst, and fatigue" "We did travel and wade through much affliction"
8. Bore (or saw their wives bear) children in the wilderness, in much less than optimal circumstances
Why did Nephi become a prophet and his brothers become attempted murderers?
Is the answer all in chapter 2, v. 16? "I did cry unto the Lord; and behold he did visit me, and did soften my heart that I did believe all the words which had been spoken by my father; wherefore, I did not rebel against him like unto my brothers."
Once we turn our hearts from God, it is easy to be led in so many paths. Truth can feel so subjective. It is hard to move from a heart closed off to the things of God back to having a soft heart, ready and willing to believe. Fasting helps. Prayer helps. Learning to be as a child in our faith helps. Studying the scriptures helps. But so much of it depends on one simple thing: our willingness. We must be willing to listen, to hope, and to believe in the feelings we DO experience, and to accept that there are some hard things we may not understand right at this moment.
I mourn for Laman and Lemuel, for the great battle that would rage in the future, over and over again, between their children and the children of Nephi and Sam and Zoram. If only they could have been willing to turn their hearts to God. They were so close, so many times.
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