Friday, December 19, 2008

Book of Mormon Study...

To be honest, I'm really stinking at this Book of Mormon study business. I've never had such a hard time getting motivated to study. I've read the Book of Mormon countless times, but certainly at least once a year for the last 18 or so years.

So what's different this time?

Ah, well, there's the rub. I don't know.

That's not entirely true. There are some underlying currents making it difficult for me to be dedicated. And there's the little matter of my crisis of faith that has been tearing me up for the last couple of months.


and it's a big but...

I've had some beautiful, sacred, emotional experiences lately, as well as the draining, worrying, exhausting questions. And I think it's safe to say finally that I am at peace with my faith. I am at peace with the gospel. I am at peace with God. The world roils on around me. Questions may become more difficult to answer. But I have been given the gift of grace to deal with what I must, and I must assume that this gift is limitless, that God's grace can allow me to have faith in things hoped for, but not seen. It's called faith, not knowledge, after all.

So, I'll be posting more regularly. And I'll be studying even more than posting. So I'll probably just throw in little ideas or things I love as I go along.

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